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Hi, so, I chose to talk about overthinking and it's because I think that a lot of rats or a lot of people do go through this being called overthinking because having an overthinking mind is not for the weak, honestly. I tell my friends that I overthink stuff and they're like, no, what's there to overthink? Like, why are you thinking so much about this thing? And sometimes it's not because I want to, it just happens. Like, for example, I could be picking a dress to wear and I would think, like, how is it going to look on me? How is it going to match with the shoes I'm wearing? How is it going to, you know, like, I have a lot to think about one single thing. Like, I can come up with, like, I don't know, up to 10 thoughts about one single thing. And it's not the easiest thing because now this affects me in ways that are really not good. When I'm just trying to get some sleep at night and I just cannot fall asleep, I have to toss and turn a lot of times because my mind is so active thing and I'm thinking a lot and it just breaks my heart because most of the time these thoughts are not good thoughts. Most of the time it's just a lot of thoughts that are, you know, either about my future, about my family, I myself as a person, how I see myself. And I don't think, I would never really want anyone to have a bad thinking mind because even for me, when I'm, like, even going outside maybe to buy something, I'll just be thinking about, oh my God, are they looking at me? How am I walking? Is my hair okay? Do I look okay? You know, like, are my shoes clean and stuff like that. And I know this one will also draw to another topic, you know, like something like social anxiety. And yes, I do have that combo, like, I have an overthinking mind and I have social anxiety. And maybe you have the same too, maybe you've been, you know, at such a spot or something because I think it's so hard leaving my teenagers when I have to deal with both because it's so hectic, it's so tiresome, it's so bad because I can't, I can't even count the times I've cried because my mind just would keep quiet, it just keeps talking and being loud and overwhelming me and it's so bad, honestly, guys. And I don't know if any of you have such a really, an experience or something, but it's not for a week, honestly, like, you're just quiet and your mind decides, like, wake up, um, it's time to go, it's time to do this and this, and it's so hard, but, yeah, I mean, my mind never goes quiet, it is always active even when I don't want it to be, yeah. But, okay, to be honest, there are some pros to being an overthinker because sometimes I'll overthink a situation and it helps me to view this situation from different lights, from a different angle and stuff, uh, it helps me to avoid, um, you know, missing out on certain details and stuff, so, yeah, I'll overthink something for the good of it and also for the bad of it, so, I don't know whether it's a good thing or it's a bad thing, but I just, maybe if there's a next life, if there is another life, I don't want to have an overthinking mind because, brah, it's so bad, I just want to be carefree, I want to live a life where, uh, I'm not constantly, constantly trying to fight with my thoughts, so, yeah, I know. Okay, that's it for me, bye!